I'm back but whether my problematic pc holds up is questionable.
I had an unexpected moment a week or so ago where life just poured in and things have been unfolding of their own accord ever since.
It is exciting and energetic and I am just following with a beginners mind and open heart and sense of adventure to see where it all leads.
It is so amazing to me the way things began to present themselves when I stopped struggling so hard to push my own agenda and just sat in the silence of the moment. As my yoga teacher so often encourages: I engaged in the dance of yes and no. I softened with the breath. I stopped letting fear decide my fate and stepped out of my comfort zone relying solely on faith. Swallowing the fear as I embraced my courage I said "What the hell, lets do this! I don't want to be that person who at the end of their days looks back with regret on what they didn't do! A whole new vista has presented itself. Brilliant, exciting and challenging. All of which expands and broadens my experience. Allows me to grow, gives me opportunity and support to loosen my yet to be shared talents and free my own unique voice.
It is not, I am sure, going to be completely easy sailing but that is the beauty of it.
I feel so lucky and full of gratitude for every minute of this.
I wish I had something profound to say,
But it is a transitional period just now. Forward thinking, reminiscence, anticipation and quietness wrapped together as one. While some modern conveniences are stripped away I find it less irritating and more interesting in the ways it brings awareness. Things that can be left by the wayside, of people who are most important, of the fact that life is fragile with no guarantees. Spending all ones time working towards someday wastes all moments of the here and now. Worrying about what others think and letting the lack of material assets "keep" you from reaching out for your dreams is strangely sad. I choose to believe that my voice is true and following it will be a reward in and of itself.
I am grasping the moment which allows freedom, laughter, joy and connection.
I feel a calling that may well be greater than I can imagine and to ignore it would be foolish and irresponsible.
Modern times call for careful consideration and clarity but not fear. Each moment from now on will be the drum beat that leads me forward with curiousity and courage. I won't be the one that looks back and says "I wish......."
"Out beyond ideas of wrong doing and right doing there is a field.
I will meet you there"
I was so blessed and fortunate to have this strong, independent woman in my life. I had no idea when I married my husband that I would be graced with such an amazing gift of a second mom, mentor and friend all wrapped in a package labeled as mother-in-law.
Elizabeth Ann Hitzges, mom2 , was intelligent, funny, giving, non judgemental and my place to run to when the world wanted to break me.
I will miss our conversations, her insights, laughing at 2 a.m. out loud from the belly with tears running down our faces.
What I will remember is her infinate beauty, compassion and friendship.
I love you mom. I am thankful you are no longer in pain but I am going to truly miss you. I will carry you in my heart and memory until my time is done.
August 14, 1929 - January 01, 2012.
I was able to attend a 2 hr Winter Solstice yoga workshop on Sunday. Solstice is the deep quiet darkness that encourages one to go within and give thought to the things that may or may not have strengthened you through out this past year. Whether it was blessings or hardships you came away stronger. When I speak of darkness I am referring to nature and the natural balance of light and dark that occurs, not the darkness that sometimes overshadows and weakens us. No matter how dark or bleak circumstances may appear we always have our own inner light that guides each of us. It is during the darkest times you must allow it to burn brightest and have courage along with belief that you will soon be coming into a restorative and festive time. Give thanks and say good bye to this year as you set intentions and prepare to greet the coming new year.
With much gratitude I look forward.
Happy Holidays and a prosperous New Year to all of you!
My journey of a thousand miles?? I have taken the first step!
Life is now. Be present in the moments right now. Appreciate whatever it is that is occuring. It is all your guaranteed.
Some family members weren't able to go on the excursion for the christmas tree. Are these tree farms getting pretty comercialized? I think so. Can not help but wonder what kind of adventure it would be to traipse out into the woods after a big snow looking for a tree. Most likely alot more work but perhaps more fun?
Joy to our family, my youngest son is home
He is returned safe from Iraq
I am quite happy and no one more relieved
that tragedy did not strike twice
in the land of war and siege
The family will gather at christmas
giving thanks that we all are well
We will remember the one we lost to war
with wistfulness and pride heartfelt
I am no poet, and this probably reads very awkward but this is where the prompt led me and I did the best I could.
No matter the original intention of remaining peaceful the mob was becoming unruly. The sound of a low flying aircraft caught the crowds attention and created a stir of excitement as the jettison of chocolate kisses rained down.
Popping chocolate delights into their mouths the people started to behave in a reasonable manner and peace was restored.
Who among us does not appreciate a piece of delectable chocolate once in awhile??
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