When it came down to it at the end of the hospital stay he and I were just two scuffed up little runts who had a sister and daughter waiting for us to come home. It didn't get easier for awhile, and I made (in hindsight) some poor decisions but despite it all I took good care of the three of us. Later years revealed that I was a good "mommy" and they never knew we were dirt poor!
I deliberately did not make a post on 19th of this month. Instead, I sat in the quiet and let memories roll over me. Those arduous hours leading to his arrival in this world, knowing it was really just he and I that were going to ultimately make it happen are so vivid in my memory. Maybe his getting caught up on my pelvic bone was one last attempt to stay solely with me. Who is to say. There were absolutely no medications, completely natural all the way. The lights were too bright, the room too cold. Doctors, nurses and the lame ass who was an unwanted spectator that fainted and was removed (THANK GOD) were all back ground. Their inadequacies compounded the problem and they broke his little collar bone by the time all was said and done. Not to mention they said nothing about that for a full month after his birth as I fought with them that something was wrong with his little shoulder!! When he finally emerged I marveled at this little guy as I also puzzled over how I would make things work. I was newly 21 with a 2 year old and a newborn in an unhappy marriage and few skills. My main thought was that these little beings were mine and I would do whatever it took to take care of them, everyone else be damned.
When it came down to it at the end of the hospital stay he and I were just two scuffed up little runts who had a sister and daughter waiting for us to come home. It didn't get easier for awhile, and I made (in hindsight) some poor decisions but despite it all I took good care of the three of us. Later years revealed that I was a good "mommy" and they never knew we were dirt poor!
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AuthorHello, I'm Kim Hitzges. I am a writer, photographer, and mixed media artist who is following the magic that guides my life. Archives
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