But here I am in the new position that instead of bitching and complaining about I will embrace and look at as more experience for a couple more $$ an hour. I will be honest here. It is a new experience that I will try and if it doesn't work I will quit with no regrets. It will go on the list of things I've tried that weren't right for me. I don't look at these as failures but as stepping stones towards the work that brings me joy and is for the greater good of others. Sounds a little self righteous I suppose but I know it is out there. These days I just can not see staying in a job that makes you miserable just for the money. There is more to life and I am really not afraid of being broke. I know my needs will be met and trust the journey.
Daily life probably provides more fodder for writing or blogging than I utilize and my time could be better managed. I have to say that part of the problem is the infrequent sunny days. Rain and cloudy with a chance of thunderstorms are more prevalent than clear skies and full sun. So when a full out sunny day occurs I am unable to force myself to work. Are you kidding? I am going to be forced to spend most of my time indoors before long. Sunny days are a commodity that I refuse to waste! I sit in the sun, wander through the garden watching honey bees and butterflies (the few that there are) and harvest green beans, tomatoes and strawberries. Truth be told, I graze as I go. I sit on the garden bench or front porch and watch people and traffic go by. During these moments I let my mind wander and thoughts flow. I made the decision to momentarily go with the flow of where I am. It might be this relaxed state that caused me to be influenced? pressured? into accepting a position I was sure I didn't want. I came away from that moment wondering "how the hell did that happen"?!
But here I am in the new position that instead of bitching and complaining about I will embrace and look at as more experience for a couple more $$ an hour. I will be honest here. It is a new experience that I will try and if it doesn't work I will quit with no regrets. It will go on the list of things I've tried that weren't right for me. I don't look at these as failures but as stepping stones towards the work that brings me joy and is for the greater good of others. Sounds a little self righteous I suppose but I know it is out there. These days I just can not see staying in a job that makes you miserable just for the money. There is more to life and I am really not afraid of being broke. I know my needs will be met and trust the journey.
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AuthorHello, I'm Kim Hitzges. I am a writer, photographer, and mixed media artist who is following the magic that guides my life. Archives
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